And what about the internal strife that arises while you wonder if you have done the right thing or not? What about the hours spent thinking about whether or not you should try and turn around? Now I know that that there is no use really asking these questions or bothering to complain about the unforeseeable future. But I can't say that I care. Because this is what is on my mind right now and I can't seem to think about anything else. I've tried. Nothing seems to help.
And it doesn't help that I'm feeling really shitty physically either.
I just don't understand. What is wrong with me?
And I'm not really in the mood to do much more than this, so here's a book I suggest reading:
I'm rereading it now. It's good.
Nothing is wrong with you, you're just human. Sometimes it sucks. And sometimes it's pretty sweet.
ReplyDeleteI'm also skeptical that knowing beforehand the consequences of any decision one makes would make doing the right thing, or knowing what it is, any easier. Even though you'd know what all the outcomes are, you still would need to make a value judgment as to what the "right" outcome would be. And with multiple decisions, each with different outcomes that can affect any number of people, for better *or* worse, that's no easy task.
And even if you somehow have a way of determining the "right" outcome, if it negatively impacts other people, you have to live with the fact that you purposely fucked other people over, because it was the "right" thing to do. Which means that you're still gritting your teeth and bearing any consequences and/or guilt that come along.
On a lighter note, I find this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0AkMPAQ-h0 sufficiently cheery; maybe you will to.